1013 個體挫折與個人成長
…後來摩西長大，他出去到他弟兄那裡，看他們的重擔。《出埃及記 2:11》
摩西看到了他的百姓遭受壓迫，深感他是拯救他們的那一位，他內心義憤填膺，開始導正錯誤。在他為神和正義發起第一次出擊後，神讓摩西陷入空虛的沮喪中，送他到曠野牧羊四十年。在那段時間結束時，神向摩西顯現並對他說：「…將我的百姓…從埃及領出來。」但摩西對神說：「…我是什麼人，竟能去…」（出埃及記 3:10-11）。在一開始，摩西就意識到自己是拯救百姓的人，但他必須先被神培養和訓練。他從個體的觀點來看是對的，但直到他學到與神真正相交和合一之前，他不是合用做這項工作的工人。
我們可能有神的異象，也非常清楚神想要什麼；然而當我們開始去做的時候，我們就有類似摩西在曠野四十年的經歷，好像神忽略了整個事情，而當我們全然沮喪時，神回來，並重新呼召我們。然後我們開始戰兢地說：「…我是什麼人，竟能去…」我們必須學習神的巨大步伐可如此總結——「我是自有永有的…打發我到你們這裡來。」（出埃及記 3:14）。我們還必須知道我們個體為神所做的努力，只是顯示對祂的不尊重——我們的個性應該通過與神個人的關係而散發光芒，以便是祂「所喜悅的」（馬太福音3:17）。我們專註於個體對事物的正確觀點；我們有異象就能說：「我知道這是神要我做的。」但我們還沒有學會跟上神的步伐。如果你正在經歷沮喪期，那麼前面會有一段偉大的個人的成長期。
來自章伯斯的智慧
信心的根源是對那一位的認識，而最大陷阱之一，就是認為神一定會帶領我們到成功。《竭誠為主》，3月19日。
1013 Individual Discouragement and Personal Growth
…when Moses was grown…he went out to his brethren and looked at their burdens. —Exodus 2:11
Moses saw the oppression of his people and felt certain that he was the one to deliver them, and in the righteous indignation of his own spirit he started to right their wrongs. After he launched his first strike for God and for what was right, God allowed Moses to be driven into empty discouragement, sending him into the desert to feed sheep for forty years. At the end of that time, God appeared to Moses and said to him, “ ‘…bring My people…out of Egypt.’ But Moses said to God, ‘Who am I that I should go…?’ ” (Exodus 3:10-11). In the beginning Moses had realized that he was the one to deliver the people, but he had to be trained and disciplined by God first. He was right in his individual perspective, but he was not the person for the work until he had learned true fellowship and oneness with God.
We may have the vision of God and a very clear understanding of what God wants, and yet when we start to do it, there comes to us something equivalent to Moses’ forty years in the wilderness. It’s as if God had ignored the entire thing, and when we are thoroughly discouraged, God comes back and revives His call to us. And then we begin to tremble and say, “Who am I that I should go…?” We must learn that God’s great stride is summed up in these words— “I AM WHO I AM…has sent me to you” (Exodus 3:14). We must also learn that our individual effort for God shows nothing but disrespect for Him— our individuality is to be rendered radiant through a personal relationship with God, so that He may be “well pleased” (Matthew 3:17). We are focused on the right individual perspective of things; we have the vision and can say, “I know this is what God wants me to do.” But we have not yet learned to get into God’s stride. If you are going through a time of discouragement, there is a time of great personal growth ahead.
WISDOM FROM OSWALD CHAMBERS
The root of faith is the knowledge of a Person, and one of the biggest snares is the idea that God is sure to lead us to success. My Utmost for His Highest, March 19, 761 L