0703 個人的罪之專註
禍哉，我滅亡了，因為我是嘴唇不潔的人…《以賽亞書 6:5》
當我來到神的極致面前，我並不意識到自己是個模糊意義上的罪人，而是突然意識到並且我注意力的專註，被引向我生命中某個特定領域的罪。一個人很容易說：「哦，是的，我知道我是個罪人。」但是當他來到神的面前時，他無法以如此廣泛和模糊不清的陳述而輕易逃脫。我們的確信聚焦在我們特定的罪上，並且正如以賽亞那樣認識到我們的真正所是。這總是一個人在神面前的標誌，從來不是任何關於罪的模糊意識，而是聚焦在生命中某個特定的個人領域的罪的關注。神首先讓我們對祂的靈引導我們關注之事的判定確信無疑，如果我們願意降服，順服於祂對特定罪的判定，祂就會帶領我們到祂可以揭示罪的巨大潛在本質之處。當我們意識到神的存在時，神總是這樣對待我們。
我們的注意力導向對個人的罪的專註，這種經歷在每個人的生命中，從最偉大的聖徒到糟糕的罪人，都是真實的。當一個人初步踏上經驗之梯時，他可能會說：「我不知道我哪裡錯了。」但是神的靈會向他指出某些明確而具體的事情。以賽亞看到主的聖潔的異象，結果就是他的注意力被引向他自己是「嘴唇不潔的人」這個事實。「他[撒拉弗] 將炭沾我的口，說：『看哪，這炭沾了你的嘴，你的罪孽便除掉，你的罪惡就赦免了。』」（以賽亞書 6:7）。凈化之火必須用在罪被關注之處。
來自章伯斯的智慧
基督教會不應該是專家們的秘密社團，而應該是信耶穌的公開表現。《面對現實》
0703 The Concentration of Personal Sin
Woe is me, for I am undone! Because I am a man of unclean lips… —Isaiah 6:5
When I come into the very presence of God, I do not realize that I am a sinner in an indefinite sense, but I suddenly realize and the focus of my attention is directed toward the concentration of sin in a particular area of my life. A person will easily say, “Oh yes, I know I am a sinner,” but when he comes into the presence of God he cannot get away with such a broad and indefinite statement. Our conviction is focused on our specific sin, and we realize, as Isaiah did, what we really are. This is always the sign that a person is in the presence of God. There is never any vague sense of sin, but a focusing on the concentration of sin in some specific, personal area of life. God begins by convicting us of the very thing to which His Spirit has directed our mind’s attention. If we will surrender, submitting to His conviction of that particular sin, He will lead us down to where He can reveal the vast underlying nature of sin. That is the way God always deals with us when we are consciously aware of His presence.
This experience of our attention being directed to our concentration of personal sin is true in everyone’s life, from the greatest of saints to the worst of sinners. When a person first begins climbing the ladder of experience, he might say, “I don’t know where I’ve gone wrong,” but the Spirit of God will point out some definite and specific thing to him. The effect of Isaiah’s vision of the holiness of the Lord was the directing of his attention to the fact that he was “a man of unclean lips.” “He touched my mouth with it, and said: ‘Behold, this has touched your lips; your iniquity is taken away, and your sin purged’ ” (Isaiah 6:7). The cleansing fire had to be applied where the sin had been concentrated.
WISDOM FROM OSWALD CHAMBERS
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